I have found a new center. One deep within myself. Once you were everything to me, and it was beautiful. We tangled together and I think a few times we even felt whole. This year has been a wild one, but here you are still calling me on the phone at odd hours telling me I am important. I think I even heard you exhale that you loved me the morning before I left, but I had to ask to be certain. You did. For the first time I revolve around my own sun, sometimes I miss the path of yours. It’s hard to imagine you under new bodies and intertwining with new hands. You’ll always be under my skin, I don’t always know what it means when you say I’m under yours. I’ll love you forever because you are why I am me. But now I’m not afraid to love another just as much, even if it’s the new man whose stolen your body. We are getting acquainted, I’m not sure what I think yet. I’ll always miss you on days spent in this old bed with these nostalgic walls and drawers, but I’ll learn to find delight when I see your ghost in old letters and the wrinkles in his eyes when he smiles at me.
everything is blooming most recklessly
I’m Kaila. I like music and art and people who don’t take themselves too seriously. I’m 19 and life is strange. But it feels good.
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2011-12-23
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